“Though the Holy Spirit is infinite, He designs to be your Helper. He is always ready to offer assistance; all you need to do is ask…” from Jesus Calling, October 4.
With weary feet I walk back into the 95 degree kitchen after dinner. I survey the damage, and my heart sighs in a large complaint. I haven’t left the house today. This morning I thanked God for my kitchen and the opportunity I have to be in it.
Tonight, the emotions are somewhat different. Tired, hot, fussy… I begin to list my complaints to God.
And love comes in and covers me.
I remember why I am here.
The funny thing is that this is what I wanted. Motherhood, missionary life, dishes, laundry, meals from scratch. I choose this. I want this. How quickly I forget.
I want to get to the fun part where I feel like important things are happening. Â I want to get to the part where the orphans and widows live in a beautiful village. The part where lives are changed, people are set free, growth happens. hmmm. Maybe that’s what he’s doing in me. Right now. As I do the dishes.
He reminds me of the things He has been speaking to me in the last few days….
“When things seem to be going wrong, trust Me…Even a few complaints can set you on a path that is a downward spiral, by darkening your perspective and mind set… Cry out to Me in My name! Affirm your trust in Me regardless of how you feel. Thank Me for everything, though this seems unnatural- even irrational.” from Jesus calling, October 3.
Things haven’t really been going wrong at all. Things have been going great. I read my devotion and feel strong. His blessings surround us. His favor seems to be on us.
“I want you to live this day abundantly, seeing all there is to see, doing all there is to do. Don’t be distracted by future concerns. Leave them to Me! Each day of life is a glorious gift, but so few people know how to live within the confines of today…” from Jesus Calling, September 30.
Hello! How distracted could I be? How impatient am I? I want to be in tomorrow’s work today. How gracious is he with me. He knows I still have a lot to get done today. In my heart and my home. Â I am floored by His grace in my life. Â I am flooded with thankfulness. Â For his goodness. Â For his love.
I saw this article today. I mention it because my heart breaks. Just breaks. I want to help these kids. I’m ready God. Use me as you want to. I’ll be in the kitchen. Reveal your glory in me.